People talk about the film Forrest Gump. Tom Hanks said many years ago that he wanted to play Forrest because he was touched by his way of life--by a simple list of rules he adheres to, Forrest survives everything. That amazed me very much in deed. I have never thought that life can be perceived in a way so easy yet so powerful. Usually, I see most of us go crazy about the complexity of rules for surviving in the society everyday. We care so much about these unwritten rules that we unconsciously go blind and benighted when trying to live up to them. What's worse, we go craze in terms of making other people do the same thing. If they don't, we'd blame them harshly. What a big joke we have made of ourselves...

  I always feel difficult in the process of getting to know the concept of "tradition" or "convention". Or maybe I know them all the time, everybody acknowledges them after all. Just that I can not simply agree with them. The funniest part of the conversations I  have with people who try constantly to force some of these ideas on me is that: I always demand for reasons. How ridiculous! How can I be so stupid to even care to talk about reasons with these people on such topics? Except for the historical context, what reason they have for me?

  For instance, they ask me to live a regular life in the time of my holidays. This is a seemingly sensible rule I guess. Of course I would be healthier by doing that. And more importantly they would be happier by looking at my obedient behaviors. So what is this all about? My life or their pleasure? Then I ask why--why on earth should I sleep early and get up early if I have nothing to do in the morning and plan to have a little fling in my holiday?  They get angry even by hearing my question...Okey, let's hear they talking...

  First of all, it is about forming a good habbit of life. Second of all, to have a good habbit of life is what you should do as an big girl. Third of all, you should consider people who live with you, they hear your late-night-noises and suffer a lot. What should you do when you have your own family?

  Great art of preaching. Applause. But is it true? I admit that I have not been considerate enough to keep my noise down, so I'll try hard to avoid that disturbance from today. But  how about quit your big talk about changing the way I live my life? I know good habbit is really good and worth trying but what if I hate this one particularly? Besides, if I can solve the problem of your suffer directly why should I practice your other added preaching? Let's face the problem directly, are you people asking me to cut off my noise or are you trying to force your believes on me? I guess I got you angry by just raising this question...sorry, i am so ignorant and irreverent.

No matter how big you started with, it always ends up so small. So insignificant. Thses words started with the great philosophy of life but ends up in this little nonsense about some crab. Anyway, I feel so strange when being forced upon ideas I don't quite get the meaning. So if you understand something, just let me know.

  By the way, don't try conventional reasons such as: by saying or forcing your to do sth. about forming a good habbit, people only think for the sake of you; they care about you;they want you to become good person, etc. I won't buy it. It is nothing wrong, just too unreasonable and fake for me to accept.